"fuck you and your goddamn scene
it never meant that much to me
it never was that interesting at all"

woahhh the angel cries

blah blah blahhh im disappointed with some people right now =/
wish i was with tc this weekendd

amazing.

Jaws Theme Swimming
Sic transit Gloria
Archers
Milstone
Shower scene
No seatbelt
Okay I believe you
Brickhouse
Luca
Sowing Seasin
Jesus
Degausser
You won't know

Mix tape
70x7
Play crack the sky

past, present & future

first i wanna say im glad mikes back to the blogging community. i love his blogs, along with all the other ones i follow. they are all different in their own ways, good or bad.

ive been talking with randi resolve lately. shes great to talk to and we have so many of the same interests, so talking with her is extremely easy.

basically ive come to realize that my life, for the past 4 months, has been the best few i can remember. so much has changed for the better i couldnt be more pleased with the outcome.

here are some words and how i feel these words have related to my life and experiences in the last 4 months:

purity:
i try and keep my life as pure as possible. i feel it has been easier lately then before. the simple things in life are what get me through the bad times and the good. if you can just laugh at something simple or admire something subtle, then it makes your problems and worries seem non existent.

surround yourself:
surround yourself with the people who are gonna make you a better person, or at least help you strive to be the person you want to be. for me, being with the the 5 members of the band and the whole group of people that make up the entourage, its like having constant breaths of fresh air. some of the most genuine people ive ever met. i learn a lot from some of these people and they probably would never know it. its just refreshing to be around people like these. something im definitely not used to. but i've quickly learned to appreciate and cherish what i have

inspiration:
(nate im sure your gonna be reading this, and im sure your gonna be disagreeing with a lot of things i say, so just bear with me lol)
inspiration can come where you least expect it. these past few months, i didnt have to look far for inspiration, because it was right in front of my face the whole time. of course the music i listen to and my elders in my family are the people i get inspired by. but in reality, nate is a big influence and an inspiration to me; through his lyrics, but more importantly through the way he lives his life. i love the way he carries himself and his outlook on everything. i mean i dont know much about anything, but i feel like hes had a lot to overcome in his life, and hes gotten through it with this positive attitude that im so envious of. ive only known him for a little while but ive already learned so much from him. and i can almost guarantee that other people share these same thoughts too.

family:
having a strong and supportive family could really be all you'll ever need in life. No matter what happeneds to you and no matter where your friends are in 20 years, your family is always gonna be there for you. its a natural love thats never gonna go away, no matter how much you (or they) try. so im glad to say that the people i call family are gonna be there for me, always, and the same goes for them.

there is one thing that, throughout my adolescent & young adulthood life, remained constant. its something that will remain constant for a long time. its

music

music is art. art is music. treat it that way. respect it that way. music is that constant element in my life, like the earth and the sun. no matter where i go or what i do i'll always want to have those 6 strings next to me, or that pair of earbuds, and this voice that carries the words.

as you can tell been doing lots of thinking on my previous years and my future.

have no regrets & aspire to inspire: past, present & future


my contacts are dry, thats the sign to get off the computer and sleep.
-j

snow day snow day snow day

i'll catch up on blogs tomorrow

cancer with hair

wild sweet orange

"It took me twenty years
to get a guitar in my hand.
And now that I do,
I just want to sing it for you
like it's never been said to you.
There is nothing else that I know how to do."

a great song is like a perfect wife

I fucking love the song relentless by audrey sessions. Its inspiring really. Its everything I look for in a song: good structure, good lyrics, nice progression, nice build up, great vocals, killer chorus, and plenty of emotion and meaning behind the song. Its like a perfect formula. Its like your perfect spouse.

In life, the only thing I'm picky about is the music I listen to (and the women I fall for...sometimes) Lots of factors go into me liking a band. Both live and recorded. And the bands recording has to be good. I'm a sound freak and I partly blame that on my brother. He is my inspiration as a musician and definately the most talented and smartest musician I know. It might be in the marotta blood too because my great great(?) grandfather was a composer in italy.

I'm really feelin this shuffle right now. And yessss death cab just came on. Transatlanticism is one of my favorite records of all time. Total night driving music. There are few albums that I can call close-to-perfect, and this definatlely is one of those albums. And I'm glad to see death cab as rickys song-of-the-blog :)

kill the messenger

I love weekend tours. Its like having the joys of playing out of state without the stresses of whole months long tours, when you just get sick of everything and wanna go home.

Friday the show was crowded and fun. After we stayed at quinnepiac university to the lovely hospitality of jaymie and her roomates. I had dairy queen for the first time and was very pleased.



Now we are drivin home from VT. The van is dark and the music of jacks mannequin is playing through the speakers. The show was real fun and we sounded tight according to the other bands. I have so much fun playing with tc. I enjoy the music we play very much and Its easy for me to get into and rock out.its a great feeling to share the stage with your best friends and play to your good friends and new faces. My dam strap came off my guitar but thankfully dobbie was right there to fix it for me. And we duck taped it during red letter. Good teamwork. Speaking of teamwork, they played after us and they were awesome and nice dudes. We are driving on 87 south, just passed the crossgates mall, so its nice to see some familiar surroundings.

I made a twitter, so that means there's gonna be like 7 ways that I can connect with people via the inter and mobile web. I like it. It gives me something to do when I'm bored.

Now mae is playing and it brings me back like 2 years ago, when I listened to the everglow for the first time and I loved it.

On the way to the show some 16 year old kid cut us off in a mitsubishi 3000. I went flying from the office. My hand still hurts I think I bruised my insides. Thankfully it didn't effect my guitar playing.

I think that's all for now, might blog later just to make this ride go quicker. Maybe I'll take a nap.

-j

tiny vessels

as im sitting here watching my favorite black-nineties sitcom, the fresh prince of belair, i should endulge you viewers out there of my night that was pretty eventful.
basically andre and i drove around aimless in wonder. we we did 35 in a 15, went 'splorin, got pulled over, and got advised to put our headlights on, watched movie credits and ate some tbell. pointless but fun.

i wrote a blues jam today. gotta add some words and structure it up.

and i wanna say that i love erica martin. shes the best pretend girlfriend ever and im sorry i pretend hurt her :(

movie night tomorrow?

sleep now.

jay later.

traitor

did my best to avoid the red-cliches

jays facts of life.
actually more like random nonsense from today


valentines day. nothing special as usual. the only woman that gets a card from me is my mother. and she always gets me chocolate anyways.

im hating my job more then ever

i applied to 3 schools today

the mlb channel is awesome. i can watch it all day. i just watched world series recap: 1997. i cried when the yankees got knocked out in the playoffs that year. true story. granted i was only 7

theres this mentally challenged woman that shows up at my store every once in a while. she just walks around, hitting on people (girl or guy) and making you feel terribly uncomfortable. whenever we see her in line we pretend we dont see her so we dont have to bear the trouble of ringing her up. first she starts out with a really stupid joke, usually a michael jackson one. then she gives us all names. i got called sugar lips, ac/dc, and num nuts. she called the girl that rang her up hillbilly girl and long legs. she told the kid next to me that he should be on pimp my ride, then called him afro man.

the changer is way too far from me right now

i had pizza for dinner

i made a sick mix cd today. mix cds are my shit

i got a haircut

tired

peace

-j

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37 sundays

my sunday described in 37-2 word phrases. sort of

sunday morning
gorgeous weather
rainy trestles
back cracking
practice spaces
astorias gyros
new jersey
texting friends
hilly parkinglots
metal bands
rockin out
delay pedals
volume pedals
good friends
singing along
heavy amps
fuck elmo
maybe baby
cold ghost
facebook mobile
jersey diners
sweet-potato fries
cherry cokes
ass holes
banana splits
28$ dinners
good laughs
mio malfunctions
interstate 80
lower manhattan
shart house
battery tunnel
backseat naps
tired eyes
long drives
early november
the break contest sucks.

i know that last one wasnt two words, i just wanted to throw that in there

all i gotta say is

listen to sigur ros. i dont understand what the hell hes saying, but hes awesome

delicious

Coraline was a pretty good movie. i liked it. the animation was insane considering it was stop motion and made by hand. some parts felt like i was tripping on acid, and some parts made me wonder if this movie was made for kids or not. plus it was in 3D which made it look cooler. me and andre were badasses and stole our 3D glasses instead of returning them. heh.

definitely wanna see it again.

oh and supposedly blink 182 is getting back together. i can really care less. unless they make an awesome sounding record, which im sure is not gonna happen, but one can only hope. itd be cool if they can tour and just play stuff off take off your pants and enema. id see that

anyways, gonna hit the sack and listen to some tunes, cause of work tomorrow at 11. excited and kinda nervous for sunday. hopefully all goes well

-j

jesus

that damn song is stuck in my head

Last night was interesting. First off I just wanna say I'm back to normal eating, and I never wanna eat a hardboiled egg ever again put it that way. It feels good to be back and not have to starve myself.
Last night at nates it was me nate andre erica colin nicky timmy tj and dylan. It was good seeing timmy again too. Before, in long island, ricky and andre went food shopping for our second dinner party ever. They bought waffle/pancake mix, eggs, bread, orange juice, nesquick, and other various breakfast material. Everything was real good. I love that waffle maker. After we were done eating we were just hanging around, and nate decides to follow through with the idea he had texted us all earlier in the day. He wants us to cover some kelly clarkson song. So nate decides how he wants to make this video as I'm sitting there learning how to play it on geetar. It was very simple and I picked it up pretty quick. After some test runs and line rehersals, we start the shooting for the verse. For the most part we all forget our line (I know I did). But after a little while we pull through..then it was on with the second verse. We change it around and move downstairs. All I can say is it turned into a silent dance party on the couch. Idk how that happend. As colin mentioned, it lasted for far too long haha. I'm really interested in how its gonna come out. All I can say is that we got some good footage.
The closer it got to midnight, the more it meant that we should head home.we say our goodbyes for like 20 minutes, then me andre and erica head back east. I played a sweet mix with some gabriel, shins, coldplay, mansions, relient k, and some more good stuff.

So now I'm at school waiting for andre to get out of his lab class, cause our teacher is cool and let's us out early. His is a hube. Deciding on burger king or mcdonalds for our lunch date, cause those are the only 2 places we have coupons to.

I gotta work tonight, so I may not blog. We'll see. Cheers.
-j

starving

day 2 of the diet is in full swing. its almost 5 and im starving. deciding when i should eat my dinner. today, my breakfast consisted of half a banana, a piece of toast and an egg. i hate eggs, but on this diet you get so hungry, you'll eat anything. went off to class with my old russian geology professor, who says nonsense most of the time. he uses the same phrases over and over and it bothers me so much haha. i came home, dicked around, ignoring my management homework till the last minute. for lunch i ate a cup of cottage cheese and 5 saltine crackers. ugh

i then had a good talk with one of my ex's. i havent talked to her in months and it was good catching up. i told her things that ive been wanting to tell her for a while and she did the same. i really messed up with that. i did things id like to take back, and she knows that. we both grew and learned from each other, and im glad shes happy now and i hope we can talk more often.

anyway, before my second class, i finished the homework for it and sure enough i wasnt able to print out the assignment with my ancient desktop. so i finished it, emailed it to myself, drove fast to school (which probably wasnt a good idea because it was snowing), ran to the library and printed it out. wound up making it to my class in time and in time for a seat (its extremely overcrowded.) turns out i did the wrong thing for the wrong chapter. so in an effort to do the right thing, i scribble out a new assignment, even though its supposed to be typed. i do all of this while the professor is bullshitting in the beginning of class. a valiant effort. i even participated in the discussion of the homework to make it seem like i initially did the right assignment. turns out he didnt even collect it at the end of class. all that stress for nothing. ugh

at 7 me and andre are going matts grandfathers wake. me and andre were sad to hear that he passed away. he had heart and lung problems ever since i started hanging out with matt in 11th grade (2005), but he'd always get through them and be back on his feet. at one point i remember he was so close to death, and like a week later he was back at matts house, hangin out like nothing happened, fully aware of his surroundings and tellin me he was feeling great. he was pretty resilient, so i was sad to hear he passed. though mine and matts friendship ended kind of harsh, its still good to see him every so often and see that hes happy doing what hes doing. and his family has done a lot for me so of course im gonna be at the wake. thankfully i found someone to cover me at work.

so thats my night, if i get done with homework i'll be back blogging my little head off. i got something up my sleeve. heh

-j

i just wanna be pure

havent blogged over the weekend. finally got some time today cause i dont work mondays. i was gonna blog in the library but the interweb was not working =[ classes were fine today. in psych we watched a 2020 special from like 20 years ago and they showed a boy with epilepsy get brain surgery. its crazy because they had to keep the kid awake to run tests on his brain. one test they did, the doctors made him count and when they touched a certain part of his brain that effected his counting, the kid just blurted out a noise instead of counting to the next number, it was insane. and with a little vacuum tube, they literally sucked out the section of his brain where the epilepsy braincells were. it was gross but really interesting. and they showed the kid like years later and he was pretty much seizure free. rediculous.

because of the combination of my lack of physical activity and eating horrible as of late (holidays, superbowl) im doing this 3 day diet/cleansing kinda thing that i used to do. its rough but i know it works. for 9 meals (3 days) you eat a certain portion of a certain food for every meal. for example, today my breakfast was a piece of toast with peanut butter, a half of a grapefruit, and a cup of green tea. eating a grapefruit is disgusting btw. for lunch was another piece of toast, a can of tuna fish and a black coffee to drink. i hate coffee, that was torture. and for dinner i was "treated" with two measly pieces of chicken, string beans, beets, and an apple. i actually like beets, contrary to popular opinion. im waiting to have my half cup of vanilla ice cream thats for dessert haha. i guess you need a tiny bit of saturated fat in this diet, and the ice cream compensates lol. its sad that the one thing i look forward to today is the stupid cup of ice cream.

this weekend was a good one overall. friday me andre and johnson hit up a hofstra party at johns friends house off campus. it was pretty nuts. it got far too crowded so we left and hung out with some of johns friends from his greece trip. saturday was real fun, after being kicked out the dancer house party, me johnson andre ricky lo and diego went to another dancers house to hang and drink some more lefty beers. the acoustic guitar came out and next thing i knew i was playing it and we had a tc sing along. give me alcohol and any shyness i have about singing and playing the guitar in front of people goes away. its funny. then sunday was nates superbowl party. was lots of fun. im glad the hosts favorite team won. he was jumpin around, almost falling through the roof. i commend whoever brought the peanut butter chex bowl thing. i was all over those.

me and erica had a nice talk in astoria park before the game. we were on the water right next to the triborough bridge. we saw the sunset over manhattan, it was pretty sick. we talked about our lives and our futures and the summer and what the hell we are gonna do when all our friends leave us lol. i love our talks, theyre so comforting.

glad it was an eventful weekend. looking foward to a lot of things this month, and this spring.

i'll be back reporting on the diet tomorrow, hopefully i dont starve to death.

I Knew You Before- Dustin Kensrue

You were once a sweet little girl
So innocent and pure
Your eyes were open and sure
Anyone could look right in
I followed closely your gaze
You looked up towards the sky
And I watched your face drift away
Other things had caught your eye
Oh, the magazines and media supplied you with their plastic protocol
Oh, and maybe music television really is the devil after all
But all I can say is I knew you before
You were beautiful back then
Before you grew up, before you gave in
You dream of sharing your heart
Instead you share your bed
And your heart beats empty and cold
With all the tears that you have shed
You dream of baring your soul
Instead you bare more skin
And you wear dark glasses to keep
Anyone from looking in
Oh, the magazines and media supplied you with their plastic protocol
Oh, and maybe music television really is the devil after all
But all I can say is I knew you before
You were beautiful back then
Before you grew up, before you gave in
And all you want is to hear the words
"Dear baby I love you"
So you hike your skirt higher still
'Till there eyes are all on you
You drive in fast foreign cars
The color of your sin
And you tint your windows to keep
Anyone from looking in
Oh, and all I can say I knew you before
You were beautiful back then
Before you grew up, before you gave in
And all I can say is I knew you before
You were beautiful back then
You could be beautiful again


this song has been the soundtrack to my last few days. heard somewhere that the "you" he's referring to has a double meaning. on first listen i figured it was about a girl. but if you look closely, the "you" and the "girl" he sings about could be the music industry and what it has become in recent years. after reading the line about music television it kinda made sense to me. re read the lyrics, listen to the song and it should be self explanatory. let me know what you think. do you agree?

blahh

have had nothing to say for a few days. focused on school and stuck far into the grind. excited for this weekend though. miss the friends. hopefully i'll have some time this weekend to blog and stuff. goodnight!

music notes

my cousin john came back from greece yesterday and took some amazing pictures. this was by far the coolest one.

best fucking band ever

oh best buy

Just reportring from work. I got 5 minutes left on break. My sammich and sweet tea were delish. I just wanna say that I walked into the bathroom before to find a man peeing in the urinal with his pants down at his ankles. It was quite disturbing and I have the image of it burned into my memory now. Awesome...

wowee zowee

i just wanna start off this blog by saying how excited i was to have heard the two tongues album. incase your pretty little mind was wondering, two tongues is a band formed by say anything frontman, max bemis aka my twin, and saves the day frontman, chris connely. max grew up idolizing chris. its ironic how their paths crossed, but it ended up as them writing music together, and making many fans of say anything/saves the day (little ol me) very happy.

upon first listen i enjoy every song pretty much. from what it seems its a record about how theres 2 sides of every story. its about relationships and how both partners see things differently. its cool how the two vocalists go back and forth, according to the song. its hard to explain but i would suggest it to anybody that was or still is fans of saves the day and say anything.

so this morning, tiredly, i stroll into the lovely A building; where ive spent most of my 1.5 semesters. and what do i see? that famous braves cap and i knew who it was automatically. me and andre have the same lab class hours...diferent class tho. and theyre right next door to eachother. so after our obnoxiously long lab classes were over, we run into thomas and debate whether to shoot him an invite to the bk lounge. then, our conversation gets RUDELY interrupted by some girl who decides to butt into our convo. pshhhhhh. its okay tho andre scolded her.

so after the bk lounge and free sammich's, i go home for my break. watch some history channel then get ready for school/work, cause its way easier that way. let me tell you...i look stylin in those best buy khakis & dress shoes...struttin my stuff all ovah those ncc hunniez~*

this afternoon i had an awesome time tho. let me explain. i put my key in my car (its name is pimpjuice). i turn it, and nothing happends. how awesome. turn it again. nothing happends, not even a spudder. luckily my piece of shit, boat of a car decided to work and save me from my 15th call to TripleA in the past year. thanks pimpjuice!



its funny, after re-reading this blog i realized...the way i write about my day makes it seem like my days are filled with awesome encounters and priceless stories. dont let my blog fool you. my days are mediocre at best. blogging is the only time i can say i use my partial imagination and my minimal use of description. i find it to be quite enthralling.

alright that should be all. goodnight
-j

frequent flappers

its late, im tired, but i need to keep up with my blogging~*

i hope that me going to school isnt gonna mean lame blogs cause nothing interesting happends during my day.

we'll see~*~

a steady wage and a cheap guitar

good ol ncc. guidos, guidettes, and white kids who think they're black fill the halls and sidewalks. the crowded parking lot came to me as no suprise. however the snow covered the yellow lines so the parking lot was chaotic. so many people were blocked in it was funny. i went in my little nook, where there is always parking. anyway my classes were cool, geology seems interesting, and my management teacher is insane i swear. he asked us what drugs were in nowadays. he takes long pauses and stares up at the top left corner of the ceiling while he talks. he says he pauses to "think."

i really dont mind nassau. i kinda missed it. most of the teachers are great. and most of the teachers also teach at 4 year schools as well.

tomorrow i have 3 classes straight through, ending the day with a 2 hour and 15 minute accounting 102. atleast i know the teacher, because i had her for 101. shes great but i feel like the class is gonna suck. oh well. im excited for this semester anyway.

need some sleep
peaceeee

dont know what to title this

im home. tonight was fun. goood laughs.
everyone is going back to school. and its sad.
i start on tuesday. havent been in school for 8 months. hopefully i wont hit a wall.
im looking foward to being challenged again tho. i need some stir up in my brain again so i dont feel anymore braindead. i have a bad feeling accounting 2 and micro economics is gonna kick my ass. but unlike my first year at nassau, all of my focus is going to be on schoolwork. i aim to boost my gpa up so i wont have any trouble transfering in the fall. these next 4 months should be pretty interesting tho im curious to see what comes next for me.

mint hoodies and raspberry iced tea

Erica and I are having a picnic. We got cheezits club crackers pop tarts and raspberry iced tea. She is singing van halen and journey. We are off to a party since our friends in a red van aren't coming home till late. Later we are gettin sheriff silver surfer. That's all for now. Update later

DONT LOOK IN HERE!

last night was another fun night with the people i call my friends. tc played highland ballroom. it was a pretty crazy day. driving into the city we were informed of the plane that landed in the hudson. that pilot guy is amazing he saved so many peoples lives. anyway, as we were driving into the city we hear traffic advisories that say AVOID THE WEST SIDE. ironically, highline ballroom is on w16th between 9th and 10th, so we were heading for doom. there was nothing cool. and the west side wasnt congested that badly. and we didnt see a floating plane. nate took us down the wrong street, but we recovered quickly. mike nearly hit pedestrians. and stevie yelled at some asian woman to not look in our van. the nice police officer let us down w16th going in the wrong direction and let us do a uturn. it was nice of him.

so its freezing and we are loading in as quick as possible. the venue is so nice. we had our own little dressing area spot. they gave us cases of beer, 5 trays of catering, a bottle of whiskey, and all the perrier steve could ask for. def an awesome venue and awesome booking. i wish i played at this place with my old band. its funny i recognized like 5 people at the show today just from being in the band i was in. we came in contact with these people at like meetings, shows, showcases and all that junk. didnt feel like reintroducing myself to any of them because i really dont care. they serve no purpose in my life anymore so i didnt feel like wasting my time.

before the stuff went on stage i did some tech stuff. thankgod for the pocket knife i brought.

the stuff went on stage, i stuffed my face with catering like an Ethiopian at KFC. kicked back a few magic hats as the doors opened. me mike and nate went through each song and told me what guitar they needed with what tuning and what fret the capo went on. i already knew all that stuff. i basically know how to play everyone of their songs anyway.

so as our time came to set up and play, i went out there checked nates acoustic, checked his mic, brought the guitars on stage. they were just about ready to play. i picked up the tambourine and started rockin out. so much fun. i love the intro they play, such a good way to build up their set and get the blood flowing. it gives me chills everytime i hear it. so i was happy to be a part of it at the show. it felt good to make my return to the stage. hopefully nate lets me do it everytime im there and they play the intro. heh.

anyway as they played i tuned the guitars and put the appropriate capos on. ant broke a string but i didnt see it happen and he was trying to get my attention but i had no idea was he was trying to tell me haha. i brought him his fender and he tuned up and was set to go. they played fucking awesome. ever since they started touring a lot their live show has gotten so much tighter and better sounding .but they need a guitar rack (nate and mike) it would make my job so much easier. i wish i can go with them everywhere cause i have so much fun when im around them and i actually didnt mind teching. i love guitars and im a nerd when it comes to taking care of them and getting your stuff to sound good.

andre met up with us after we played. the rest of the show was fun, got to hang out with friends, sold some shirts with dobster, drank some beerz, see old friends. lights resolve were amazing as usual. after the show we got chicken and rice which was awesome. thanks nicky c. we all came back to astoria to nates to watch some tbs. unfortunately me erica and dob had to say goodbye and drive home. we were all so tired.

today nothing went on besides me going to work. my gm made me do some annoying tasks (like go through cds and tag the dividers with the appropriate artist name that was missing) i did artists a-e. i made sure i did brand news divider and makde sure it was in the front for everyone to see the artwork for "devil and god" haha.
after that i napped and that brings me here now. work in the am tomorrow. and hopfully going to oceanside to hang with the old creww and meet up with zachy<3.

so here i am saying goodnight at 1:45 am while watching survivorman. sick show.
goodnight!
-j

its funny how i stressed the fact that i was tired last night and i had to wake up for work. well i had to be at work at 945. i woke up at 956. put my clothes on, grabbed a water and my sandwich and left. did about 85 on the meadowbrook. got there at 1015. it wasnt that bad because there was someone else in my department who also opened. and theres not too many people who show up to best buy at 10am either. other than creepy old people. work went by quick tho. saw a friend who i havent seen in a while, so that was nice. dont know what tonight holds, all i know is that its freezing in my goddamn house.

excited for this thursday. gonna be tc's guitar tech, so nate could be all rockstar and have someone else take care of checking his mic/guitar for him. i know secretly deep down hes gonna enjoy it haha. also hopefully i can rock out on the tambo during the intro haha. that would be fun.
concerning mikes blog: i agree with every word he said about our friends and the little group that makes up my friends. im so glad i have all those people in my life right now because its honestly what i needed. its good to be around such genuine people and such a genuine band. something im not used to.

well im gonna go off and freeze to death in my house. see yaaa
-j

game night part dos

I gotta keep this short cause I'm tired and have to wake up for work in a few hours.I am currently laying in my bed on my blackberry listening to the shins and drifting off to sleep.

But tonight was game night part 2 at ericas temp house.it was the normal crew plus a few others and ericas temp housemates, who are all awesome.

We walked in to catchphrase. That looked intense. Then we played torrets, which I was so horrible at cause I have like minimal vocab and I'm not a quick thinker. Scattegories sucked cause there was like 15 of us. But then charades was the game of the night. Me,mike and,timmy thought of some random tv shows and movies, but ash chandler and her team figured out most of them which was suprising. After that round andre thought of 15 random words for us to act out. I had army tank and I had such a hard time acting that out haha. Overall it was lots of fun. We made quesadillas and nutella sandwhiches with intentions to make waffles. We are trying to plan game night 3 and the foods we're gonna make afterwords.

Gotta get some sleep tho, work at 945 tomorrow

Night!
-j

too tired

to blog tonight

your only escape

my tattoo is starting the itching phase. god that sucks.

glad i actually left my house tonight. haha. a good chunk of the people i hang out with on a normal basis are either in a foreign country, a different state, or on tour. but thankfully samantha had some kids over her fathers house for ashleys birthday, and i rolled on by. i love sam. we've been close for like 2 years now. and they first time we actually met was really funny and we always tend to bring it up haha. her bf bowie, who i also love, is in a band that just recently changed their name to "i am forever" which is awesome and i like better then "still we rise". i dont know much about hardcore/metal music but i know that those kids are pretty dam good so check them out. and two of the other kids in the band were there, devin and jesse, who are both cool dudes. before tonight i havent seen my friend christa in the longest time and i honestly cannot remember the last time i saw her. so it was good to see her. it was funnn. me and sam took like 40 pictures together and only like one or two came out good. mainly because sam was getting progressively drunk throughout the night and i accidentally hit the power button instead of the actual button that takes the picture haha.

work wasnt bad this morning, i just hate waking up early. im glad i work with kids who keep me entertained tho or else my job would be even more boring and monotonous then it already is.

tomorrow, me ericy and timmy are trekking down to smelly NJ to meet up with this condition, andre and dob. so that should be fun like always.

i hope the giants beat the fuckin eagles tomorrow. i hate that team. i have some doubts cause the last 5 games the giants played like shit and the eagles have been hot. its gonna be a close game regardless

and finally i wanna send a thank you to andre for giving me those gatsbys american dream albums. they are so dam good and what i am currently listening to.

-j

i love cannolis, and cheese.

(this post is long, sorry!)
last night was spent very pleasantly with good friends and good food. nate had us over his house in astoria for a nice home cooked meal. thanks for the good memories timmy andre erica colin and nate. thanks for the good food and great cooking erica and nate. and a thanks to timmy for the awesome desserts. i tore up that cannoli. after some laughs and saying how stuffed we were and colin showing us someone that looked nothing like andre, we said our goodbyes, and i parted alone back to long island. only cause andre was staying over nates because them two were leaving with tC in the morning for a string of shows in virginia, maryland, and jersey. good luck to them in their travels and putting up with a WHOLE weekend with andre. the ride home was a bit lonely and it didnt help that was so tired. but the sweet sounds of ace enders and the rest of the early november crew kept me awake, and company.

i put on the triple disc, "the mother, the mechanic , and the path" by the early november(rip). one of my all time favorites, even tho ive grown out of them a bit. but that cd brings me back to the days of high school, and the first girl i've ever loved. so it was a bit nostaglic.

i highly recommend the triple album by them, because its their latest and it shows so much of the growth i love to see in a band. its a 3 disc concept album. the story goes by 3 chapters and its basically about a boy and his struggles of growing up with a neglecting dad, and running away with his first love at the age of 18. the main character winds up starting a family and having a son, and he realizes he does some of the exact same things as his father once did to him as a child. so its pretty cool.

i love how they separated the album by 3 discs:
-the first disc,"the mechanic", is composed with harder songs the and classic early november angst that their true fans are fond of from the days of "the rooms too cold"
-the second disc, "the mother", has great slower and softer songs which are all great. they end this one end with a clincher of 3 solid acoustic songs that i particularly love
-the third disc, "the path", is simply amazing. its not a regular cd where every track is a song, but its a theatrical telling of the story line of the album. some of it is dialogue between the lead character and a psychiatrist, all roles played by ace enders, the lead singer. the dialogue is backed with awesome airy, spacy like backround music. and some of the tracks are songs, each being a different sort of musical genre, but all songs are connected to the plot. it all flows so so well and it feels like your in the middle of the story. (something that i feel "Razias Shadow" a musical by forgive durden lacked. this cd totally kicked its ass.)

i hope true music fans would appreciate this cd, or atleast appreciate the concept and the effort this band put in creating something different and great.

speaking of growth in a band...a huge factor in me liking a band is the growth they go through in writing their records. a reason why i hold brand new in such high regards is the difference between their 3 albums and how much each member of that band grew as musicians and matured as songwriters. all 3 of their albums are entirely different and amazing in their own way, i think. i am puzzled of how thier new ones gonna sound.
the only reason i bring this "growth" up is based on some ongoing thoughts in my head and a conversation i had with erica after a new found glory song came on in her car. i am all for nfg as a band and at one point i loved them , just like everyone im sure. but after hearing their newest song i think theyve shown little to no progression as artists. i feel like theyre newest stuff is the same as the songs theyve been playing for like 20 years. its a shame that this horrible music industry frowns upon change. but i'll save that for another blog haha, seeing of how long i actually made this one.

hopefully meeting up with my friends, tC, in hamilton, nj on sunday. theyre playing the infamous hamilton lanes. where bands bowl for free. i have some good memories of great jersey fans, horrible pool games, play till you win stuffed animal claw games, trying to sell merch to a busload of italian tourists (who were compiled of mostly gorgeous italian women), horrible sound, and merchguy drama involving the van and a lady (which i thought was hysterical)

so yeah about my day...i woke up, i went to work, ate a sandwich, came home and wrote this.
a good portion of my friends are gone for the weekend, so i need some plans for tonight. or maybe i dont. i could use a night of rest.



peace and string beans,
jay

im so badass

you brainstorm, i brainstorm, but brilliance needs a good editor

getting my tattoo tomorrow, gonna post a picture.

oh comely

after a late night drive with my "half hard" bandmate, i need to write:
i gotta break the string of similar girls i date. all are the same in a few ways.
probably never gonna get better but atleast i can dreamm right?
i wish i can take back a few things in the past and change shit around but i cant and have to live with it. wish a particular girl was back in NY so i can atleast tell her how i feel. i would tell her how much i miss her and apologize for hurting her. then i think a huge burden would be lifted off these shoulders of mine. hopefully one day.

but i find myself thinking back on how good i had it in the 08summer. once the fall rolled in, she moved on, rather quickly, and i should too, but its a long and grueling process. the way we met was rather unconventional, and we came out of nowhere. never thought i could fall so hard so fast. it was stupid for me to ever believe it would work out, the way our lives were opposite in every way. me being so optimistic all the time came and bit me in the ass. i was in love and had no perception on anything, and not to mention getting zero sleep. she was right all along and i never should've believed myself that we would make it through the things that kept us apart. i hope i still possess a tiny part of her heart, cause she has a good chunk of mine. she showed me some great things and what we had i'll never forget. but it was never meant to be.

sorry bout the emo rant but just had to get it out of my head. thanks blogspot!

samuel jackson, helen keller and aids

apples to apples. helen keller helped me get a whopping 19 green cards. suck it andre.
me and mikesconditon acousticly jammed and taught eachother songs. put on our best JL impressions. ate some waffles with mad choc chips in them, but erica is one dam fine waffle chef.


got some guns on my wall.


zero to do tomorrow but go to the mall and get rid of my dam gift cards.


queen on my right arm in 2 daysssssss !

goddamn you half japenese girls

rivers cumomo is awkward, but i love the music he makes (and covers)

2012

yeahyeah everyone has these things now. im quite late on it. since i deleted my myspace and you cant really do much on facebook besides stalk peoples lives, im conforming. not to mention, its 5 in the fucking morning and im bored.

just finished watching forgetting sarah marshall and i wanna marry mila kunis.

did my usual sunday routine: wake up at 1, watch football, lay around, watch the discovery channel, watch the history channel, and eat.
an exciting life i lead.

tattoo appointment at 1pm on wednesday!