I Knew You Before- Dustin Kensrue

You were once a sweet little girl
So innocent and pure
Your eyes were open and sure
Anyone could look right in
I followed closely your gaze
You looked up towards the sky
And I watched your face drift away
Other things had caught your eye
Oh, the magazines and media supplied you with their plastic protocol
Oh, and maybe music television really is the devil after all
But all I can say is I knew you before
You were beautiful back then
Before you grew up, before you gave in
You dream of sharing your heart
Instead you share your bed
And your heart beats empty and cold
With all the tears that you have shed
You dream of baring your soul
Instead you bare more skin
And you wear dark glasses to keep
Anyone from looking in
Oh, the magazines and media supplied you with their plastic protocol
Oh, and maybe music television really is the devil after all
But all I can say is I knew you before
You were beautiful back then
Before you grew up, before you gave in
And all you want is to hear the words
"Dear baby I love you"
So you hike your skirt higher still
'Till there eyes are all on you
You drive in fast foreign cars
The color of your sin
And you tint your windows to keep
Anyone from looking in
Oh, and all I can say I knew you before
You were beautiful back then
Before you grew up, before you gave in
And all I can say is I knew you before
You were beautiful back then
You could be beautiful again


this song has been the soundtrack to my last few days. heard somewhere that the "you" he's referring to has a double meaning. on first listen i figured it was about a girl. but if you look closely, the "you" and the "girl" he sings about could be the music industry and what it has become in recent years. after reading the line about music television it kinda made sense to me. re read the lyrics, listen to the song and it should be self explanatory. let me know what you think. do you agree?

blahh

have had nothing to say for a few days. focused on school and stuck far into the grind. excited for this weekend though. miss the friends. hopefully i'll have some time this weekend to blog and stuff. goodnight!

music notes

my cousin john came back from greece yesterday and took some amazing pictures. this was by far the coolest one.

best fucking band ever

oh best buy

Just reportring from work. I got 5 minutes left on break. My sammich and sweet tea were delish. I just wanna say that I walked into the bathroom before to find a man peeing in the urinal with his pants down at his ankles. It was quite disturbing and I have the image of it burned into my memory now. Awesome...

wowee zowee

i just wanna start off this blog by saying how excited i was to have heard the two tongues album. incase your pretty little mind was wondering, two tongues is a band formed by say anything frontman, max bemis aka my twin, and saves the day frontman, chris connely. max grew up idolizing chris. its ironic how their paths crossed, but it ended up as them writing music together, and making many fans of say anything/saves the day (little ol me) very happy.

upon first listen i enjoy every song pretty much. from what it seems its a record about how theres 2 sides of every story. its about relationships and how both partners see things differently. its cool how the two vocalists go back and forth, according to the song. its hard to explain but i would suggest it to anybody that was or still is fans of saves the day and say anything.

so this morning, tiredly, i stroll into the lovely A building; where ive spent most of my 1.5 semesters. and what do i see? that famous braves cap and i knew who it was automatically. me and andre have the same lab class hours...diferent class tho. and theyre right next door to eachother. so after our obnoxiously long lab classes were over, we run into thomas and debate whether to shoot him an invite to the bk lounge. then, our conversation gets RUDELY interrupted by some girl who decides to butt into our convo. pshhhhhh. its okay tho andre scolded her.

so after the bk lounge and free sammich's, i go home for my break. watch some history channel then get ready for school/work, cause its way easier that way. let me tell you...i look stylin in those best buy khakis & dress shoes...struttin my stuff all ovah those ncc hunniez~*

this afternoon i had an awesome time tho. let me explain. i put my key in my car (its name is pimpjuice). i turn it, and nothing happends. how awesome. turn it again. nothing happends, not even a spudder. luckily my piece of shit, boat of a car decided to work and save me from my 15th call to TripleA in the past year. thanks pimpjuice!



its funny, after re-reading this blog i realized...the way i write about my day makes it seem like my days are filled with awesome encounters and priceless stories. dont let my blog fool you. my days are mediocre at best. blogging is the only time i can say i use my partial imagination and my minimal use of description. i find it to be quite enthralling.

alright that should be all. goodnight
-j

frequent flappers

its late, im tired, but i need to keep up with my blogging~*

i hope that me going to school isnt gonna mean lame blogs cause nothing interesting happends during my day.

we'll see~*~

a steady wage and a cheap guitar

good ol ncc. guidos, guidettes, and white kids who think they're black fill the halls and sidewalks. the crowded parking lot came to me as no suprise. however the snow covered the yellow lines so the parking lot was chaotic. so many people were blocked in it was funny. i went in my little nook, where there is always parking. anyway my classes were cool, geology seems interesting, and my management teacher is insane i swear. he asked us what drugs were in nowadays. he takes long pauses and stares up at the top left corner of the ceiling while he talks. he says he pauses to "think."

i really dont mind nassau. i kinda missed it. most of the teachers are great. and most of the teachers also teach at 4 year schools as well.

tomorrow i have 3 classes straight through, ending the day with a 2 hour and 15 minute accounting 102. atleast i know the teacher, because i had her for 101. shes great but i feel like the class is gonna suck. oh well. im excited for this semester anyway.

need some sleep
peaceeee

dont know what to title this

im home. tonight was fun. goood laughs.
everyone is going back to school. and its sad.
i start on tuesday. havent been in school for 8 months. hopefully i wont hit a wall.
im looking foward to being challenged again tho. i need some stir up in my brain again so i dont feel anymore braindead. i have a bad feeling accounting 2 and micro economics is gonna kick my ass. but unlike my first year at nassau, all of my focus is going to be on schoolwork. i aim to boost my gpa up so i wont have any trouble transfering in the fall. these next 4 months should be pretty interesting tho im curious to see what comes next for me.

mint hoodies and raspberry iced tea

Erica and I are having a picnic. We got cheezits club crackers pop tarts and raspberry iced tea. She is singing van halen and journey. We are off to a party since our friends in a red van aren't coming home till late. Later we are gettin sheriff silver surfer. That's all for now. Update later

DONT LOOK IN HERE!

last night was another fun night with the people i call my friends. tc played highland ballroom. it was a pretty crazy day. driving into the city we were informed of the plane that landed in the hudson. that pilot guy is amazing he saved so many peoples lives. anyway, as we were driving into the city we hear traffic advisories that say AVOID THE WEST SIDE. ironically, highline ballroom is on w16th between 9th and 10th, so we were heading for doom. there was nothing cool. and the west side wasnt congested that badly. and we didnt see a floating plane. nate took us down the wrong street, but we recovered quickly. mike nearly hit pedestrians. and stevie yelled at some asian woman to not look in our van. the nice police officer let us down w16th going in the wrong direction and let us do a uturn. it was nice of him.

so its freezing and we are loading in as quick as possible. the venue is so nice. we had our own little dressing area spot. they gave us cases of beer, 5 trays of catering, a bottle of whiskey, and all the perrier steve could ask for. def an awesome venue and awesome booking. i wish i played at this place with my old band. its funny i recognized like 5 people at the show today just from being in the band i was in. we came in contact with these people at like meetings, shows, showcases and all that junk. didnt feel like reintroducing myself to any of them because i really dont care. they serve no purpose in my life anymore so i didnt feel like wasting my time.

before the stuff went on stage i did some tech stuff. thankgod for the pocket knife i brought.

the stuff went on stage, i stuffed my face with catering like an Ethiopian at KFC. kicked back a few magic hats as the doors opened. me mike and nate went through each song and told me what guitar they needed with what tuning and what fret the capo went on. i already knew all that stuff. i basically know how to play everyone of their songs anyway.

so as our time came to set up and play, i went out there checked nates acoustic, checked his mic, brought the guitars on stage. they were just about ready to play. i picked up the tambourine and started rockin out. so much fun. i love the intro they play, such a good way to build up their set and get the blood flowing. it gives me chills everytime i hear it. so i was happy to be a part of it at the show. it felt good to make my return to the stage. hopefully nate lets me do it everytime im there and they play the intro. heh.

anyway as they played i tuned the guitars and put the appropriate capos on. ant broke a string but i didnt see it happen and he was trying to get my attention but i had no idea was he was trying to tell me haha. i brought him his fender and he tuned up and was set to go. they played fucking awesome. ever since they started touring a lot their live show has gotten so much tighter and better sounding .but they need a guitar rack (nate and mike) it would make my job so much easier. i wish i can go with them everywhere cause i have so much fun when im around them and i actually didnt mind teching. i love guitars and im a nerd when it comes to taking care of them and getting your stuff to sound good.

andre met up with us after we played. the rest of the show was fun, got to hang out with friends, sold some shirts with dobster, drank some beerz, see old friends. lights resolve were amazing as usual. after the show we got chicken and rice which was awesome. thanks nicky c. we all came back to astoria to nates to watch some tbs. unfortunately me erica and dob had to say goodbye and drive home. we were all so tired.

today nothing went on besides me going to work. my gm made me do some annoying tasks (like go through cds and tag the dividers with the appropriate artist name that was missing) i did artists a-e. i made sure i did brand news divider and makde sure it was in the front for everyone to see the artwork for "devil and god" haha.
after that i napped and that brings me here now. work in the am tomorrow. and hopfully going to oceanside to hang with the old creww and meet up with zachy<3.

so here i am saying goodnight at 1:45 am while watching survivorman. sick show.
goodnight!
-j

its funny how i stressed the fact that i was tired last night and i had to wake up for work. well i had to be at work at 945. i woke up at 956. put my clothes on, grabbed a water and my sandwich and left. did about 85 on the meadowbrook. got there at 1015. it wasnt that bad because there was someone else in my department who also opened. and theres not too many people who show up to best buy at 10am either. other than creepy old people. work went by quick tho. saw a friend who i havent seen in a while, so that was nice. dont know what tonight holds, all i know is that its freezing in my goddamn house.

excited for this thursday. gonna be tc's guitar tech, so nate could be all rockstar and have someone else take care of checking his mic/guitar for him. i know secretly deep down hes gonna enjoy it haha. also hopefully i can rock out on the tambo during the intro haha. that would be fun.
concerning mikes blog: i agree with every word he said about our friends and the little group that makes up my friends. im so glad i have all those people in my life right now because its honestly what i needed. its good to be around such genuine people and such a genuine band. something im not used to.

well im gonna go off and freeze to death in my house. see yaaa
-j

game night part dos

I gotta keep this short cause I'm tired and have to wake up for work in a few hours.I am currently laying in my bed on my blackberry listening to the shins and drifting off to sleep.

But tonight was game night part 2 at ericas temp house.it was the normal crew plus a few others and ericas temp housemates, who are all awesome.

We walked in to catchphrase. That looked intense. Then we played torrets, which I was so horrible at cause I have like minimal vocab and I'm not a quick thinker. Scattegories sucked cause there was like 15 of us. But then charades was the game of the night. Me,mike and,timmy thought of some random tv shows and movies, but ash chandler and her team figured out most of them which was suprising. After that round andre thought of 15 random words for us to act out. I had army tank and I had such a hard time acting that out haha. Overall it was lots of fun. We made quesadillas and nutella sandwhiches with intentions to make waffles. We are trying to plan game night 3 and the foods we're gonna make afterwords.

Gotta get some sleep tho, work at 945 tomorrow

Night!
-j

too tired

to blog tonight

your only escape

my tattoo is starting the itching phase. god that sucks.

glad i actually left my house tonight. haha. a good chunk of the people i hang out with on a normal basis are either in a foreign country, a different state, or on tour. but thankfully samantha had some kids over her fathers house for ashleys birthday, and i rolled on by. i love sam. we've been close for like 2 years now. and they first time we actually met was really funny and we always tend to bring it up haha. her bf bowie, who i also love, is in a band that just recently changed their name to "i am forever" which is awesome and i like better then "still we rise". i dont know much about hardcore/metal music but i know that those kids are pretty dam good so check them out. and two of the other kids in the band were there, devin and jesse, who are both cool dudes. before tonight i havent seen my friend christa in the longest time and i honestly cannot remember the last time i saw her. so it was good to see her. it was funnn. me and sam took like 40 pictures together and only like one or two came out good. mainly because sam was getting progressively drunk throughout the night and i accidentally hit the power button instead of the actual button that takes the picture haha.

work wasnt bad this morning, i just hate waking up early. im glad i work with kids who keep me entertained tho or else my job would be even more boring and monotonous then it already is.

tomorrow, me ericy and timmy are trekking down to smelly NJ to meet up with this condition, andre and dob. so that should be fun like always.

i hope the giants beat the fuckin eagles tomorrow. i hate that team. i have some doubts cause the last 5 games the giants played like shit and the eagles have been hot. its gonna be a close game regardless

and finally i wanna send a thank you to andre for giving me those gatsbys american dream albums. they are so dam good and what i am currently listening to.

-j

i love cannolis, and cheese.

(this post is long, sorry!)
last night was spent very pleasantly with good friends and good food. nate had us over his house in astoria for a nice home cooked meal. thanks for the good memories timmy andre erica colin and nate. thanks for the good food and great cooking erica and nate. and a thanks to timmy for the awesome desserts. i tore up that cannoli. after some laughs and saying how stuffed we were and colin showing us someone that looked nothing like andre, we said our goodbyes, and i parted alone back to long island. only cause andre was staying over nates because them two were leaving with tC in the morning for a string of shows in virginia, maryland, and jersey. good luck to them in their travels and putting up with a WHOLE weekend with andre. the ride home was a bit lonely and it didnt help that was so tired. but the sweet sounds of ace enders and the rest of the early november crew kept me awake, and company.

i put on the triple disc, "the mother, the mechanic , and the path" by the early november(rip). one of my all time favorites, even tho ive grown out of them a bit. but that cd brings me back to the days of high school, and the first girl i've ever loved. so it was a bit nostaglic.

i highly recommend the triple album by them, because its their latest and it shows so much of the growth i love to see in a band. its a 3 disc concept album. the story goes by 3 chapters and its basically about a boy and his struggles of growing up with a neglecting dad, and running away with his first love at the age of 18. the main character winds up starting a family and having a son, and he realizes he does some of the exact same things as his father once did to him as a child. so its pretty cool.

i love how they separated the album by 3 discs:
-the first disc,"the mechanic", is composed with harder songs the and classic early november angst that their true fans are fond of from the days of "the rooms too cold"
-the second disc, "the mother", has great slower and softer songs which are all great. they end this one end with a clincher of 3 solid acoustic songs that i particularly love
-the third disc, "the path", is simply amazing. its not a regular cd where every track is a song, but its a theatrical telling of the story line of the album. some of it is dialogue between the lead character and a psychiatrist, all roles played by ace enders, the lead singer. the dialogue is backed with awesome airy, spacy like backround music. and some of the tracks are songs, each being a different sort of musical genre, but all songs are connected to the plot. it all flows so so well and it feels like your in the middle of the story. (something that i feel "Razias Shadow" a musical by forgive durden lacked. this cd totally kicked its ass.)

i hope true music fans would appreciate this cd, or atleast appreciate the concept and the effort this band put in creating something different and great.

speaking of growth in a band...a huge factor in me liking a band is the growth they go through in writing their records. a reason why i hold brand new in such high regards is the difference between their 3 albums and how much each member of that band grew as musicians and matured as songwriters. all 3 of their albums are entirely different and amazing in their own way, i think. i am puzzled of how thier new ones gonna sound.
the only reason i bring this "growth" up is based on some ongoing thoughts in my head and a conversation i had with erica after a new found glory song came on in her car. i am all for nfg as a band and at one point i loved them , just like everyone im sure. but after hearing their newest song i think theyve shown little to no progression as artists. i feel like theyre newest stuff is the same as the songs theyve been playing for like 20 years. its a shame that this horrible music industry frowns upon change. but i'll save that for another blog haha, seeing of how long i actually made this one.

hopefully meeting up with my friends, tC, in hamilton, nj on sunday. theyre playing the infamous hamilton lanes. where bands bowl for free. i have some good memories of great jersey fans, horrible pool games, play till you win stuffed animal claw games, trying to sell merch to a busload of italian tourists (who were compiled of mostly gorgeous italian women), horrible sound, and merchguy drama involving the van and a lady (which i thought was hysterical)

so yeah about my day...i woke up, i went to work, ate a sandwich, came home and wrote this.
a good portion of my friends are gone for the weekend, so i need some plans for tonight. or maybe i dont. i could use a night of rest.



peace and string beans,
jay

im so badass

you brainstorm, i brainstorm, but brilliance needs a good editor

getting my tattoo tomorrow, gonna post a picture.

oh comely

after a late night drive with my "half hard" bandmate, i need to write:
i gotta break the string of similar girls i date. all are the same in a few ways.
probably never gonna get better but atleast i can dreamm right?
i wish i can take back a few things in the past and change shit around but i cant and have to live with it. wish a particular girl was back in NY so i can atleast tell her how i feel. i would tell her how much i miss her and apologize for hurting her. then i think a huge burden would be lifted off these shoulders of mine. hopefully one day.

but i find myself thinking back on how good i had it in the 08summer. once the fall rolled in, she moved on, rather quickly, and i should too, but its a long and grueling process. the way we met was rather unconventional, and we came out of nowhere. never thought i could fall so hard so fast. it was stupid for me to ever believe it would work out, the way our lives were opposite in every way. me being so optimistic all the time came and bit me in the ass. i was in love and had no perception on anything, and not to mention getting zero sleep. she was right all along and i never should've believed myself that we would make it through the things that kept us apart. i hope i still possess a tiny part of her heart, cause she has a good chunk of mine. she showed me some great things and what we had i'll never forget. but it was never meant to be.

sorry bout the emo rant but just had to get it out of my head. thanks blogspot!

samuel jackson, helen keller and aids

apples to apples. helen keller helped me get a whopping 19 green cards. suck it andre.
me and mikesconditon acousticly jammed and taught eachother songs. put on our best JL impressions. ate some waffles with mad choc chips in them, but erica is one dam fine waffle chef.


got some guns on my wall.


zero to do tomorrow but go to the mall and get rid of my dam gift cards.


queen on my right arm in 2 daysssssss !

goddamn you half japenese girls

rivers cumomo is awkward, but i love the music he makes (and covers)

2012

yeahyeah everyone has these things now. im quite late on it. since i deleted my myspace and you cant really do much on facebook besides stalk peoples lives, im conforming. not to mention, its 5 in the fucking morning and im bored.

just finished watching forgetting sarah marshall and i wanna marry mila kunis.

did my usual sunday routine: wake up at 1, watch football, lay around, watch the discovery channel, watch the history channel, and eat.
an exciting life i lead.

tattoo appointment at 1pm on wednesday!