oh comely

after a late night drive with my "half hard" bandmate, i need to write:
i gotta break the string of similar girls i date. all are the same in a few ways.
probably never gonna get better but atleast i can dreamm right?
i wish i can take back a few things in the past and change shit around but i cant and have to live with it. wish a particular girl was back in NY so i can atleast tell her how i feel. i would tell her how much i miss her and apologize for hurting her. then i think a huge burden would be lifted off these shoulders of mine. hopefully one day.

but i find myself thinking back on how good i had it in the 08summer. once the fall rolled in, she moved on, rather quickly, and i should too, but its a long and grueling process. the way we met was rather unconventional, and we came out of nowhere. never thought i could fall so hard so fast. it was stupid for me to ever believe it would work out, the way our lives were opposite in every way. me being so optimistic all the time came and bit me in the ass. i was in love and had no perception on anything, and not to mention getting zero sleep. she was right all along and i never should've believed myself that we would make it through the things that kept us apart. i hope i still possess a tiny part of her heart, cause she has a good chunk of mine. she showed me some great things and what we had i'll never forget. but it was never meant to be.

sorry bout the emo rant but just had to get it out of my head. thanks blogspot!